After sitting down to a meal with someone much older and wiser than I, I realized that I've got it all wrong. My meal companion gave me the kick in the butt that I needed to realize that I've been too busy to wait on the Lord. Having an active lifestyle is an admirable thing, especially when it is full of activities that promote a better future, but it is important no to get lost in all of your obligations. My second semester started in a flash and right away, I fell into a routine. Somewhere along the road I started to lose sight of my goal, and instead of striving everyday, it became about surviving everyday. What is my goal you ask? I want to live everyday fully in the embrace of my Lord and Savior. This means that I use every gift he has given me to glorify him, and only him. My first few months back became all about me. I wanted to live to praise myself and that's when my decision making took a turn for the worse. At a school where all the students believe in a "Christian life", things and people can get pretty fake, because it's seems wrong for a Christian to be anything but upbeat and happy. Most days, students at my school feel pressured just to smile because admitting failure is worse than being someone who you're not. Everyone gets caught up in the fake epidemic sooner or later, including myself. Why is that?
Society tells us that happy people are successful people. What society doesn't tell us, is how many mistakes all those successful people had to make in order to catch a glimpse of success. In all the turmoil of my schedule, I got caught up in the obsession over success and I forgot to wait. I forgot to wait on my God to provide me with the strength I need to persevere. Great success will never come from me, it will only come from Christ. I've had to make many decisions that will affect my future in my first year at college, but what I sadly neglected to realize, is that I'm not the one in charge of my life. I have an all-powerful, loving, and gracious God who takes my life into his hands and cherishes it, and that is something that should be valued. Instead of rushing to make decisions in fear of a deadline or pressure from someone else, stop and wait. So many beautiful things are lost in the blur of a hurried life. When you wait, beautiful things come to you. I know that God can do a far better job planning my life than I can, and that's why I will chose to wait.
"Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior." - Oceans, Hillsong
